There were times when some people felt they had the right to put me down because, in their own eyes, they had more than me. Not because they were richer or more successful, but because they believed they had something over me that gave them power. I took their words seriously, and slowly, their judgment started to shape how I saw myself.
Maybe you have felt this too. That quiet sense that someone else gets to define your worth.
I held onto the anger. I held onto the grudges. I told myself I would work harder, become better, and prove something. At the time, it felt like strength. It felt like motivation. But all that resentment did not make me stronger. It made me miserable. It kept me trapped in a constant state of comparison.
When I felt I had finally become better, I moved on from someone who had been both my motivation and my nightmare. I thought I had broken free from that chapter of my life, and for a moment, it felt like the pattern was over. Then I met someone else who did the same thing, and without realising it, I fell into it all over again. I worked harder, tried harder, and pushed myself to be better so they would have nothing left to use against me. Looking back, I can see that I was still letting other people define my worth.
If you have ever tied your value to proving people wrong, this moment will feel familiar.
That was when I realised this was not really about them. It was about me. It was a pattern I kept repeating without questioning it.
A pattern of using pain as fuel.
A pattern of growing through resentment.
A pattern of tying my worth to proving people wrong.
I do not want to live like this anymore. I do not want my life to be driven by anger, comparison, or quiet competition. This is not about wanting to be rich, powerful, or impressive. That was never the point.
The point is peace.
The point is freedom.
The point is choosing a life that is not driven by bitterness, jealousy, or the need to prove anything.
I care about my growth, but I do not need hate to grow. I do not need resentment to become better. I do not need pain as my engine. I want love to be my motivation. I want kindness to be my fuel. I want to use my time to contribute, to uplift, and to surround myself with people and energy that feel light, not heavy. This cycle is too painful, and I am choosing to stop it. There is already enough darkness in this world. I want to be the light.
And today, I decided to be happy.
If this story sounds like your own, you are not alone.
About the author
I’m Chi Chi Wang, helping people who struggle with body image build confidence and live with purpose.
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